Day 9 of Gratitude Month.
You know how sometimes the 1,001st time you hear something, it suddenly slides into place in its very own brain groove & finally you get it? That happened to me yesterday in the PHP & I've been turning it over & over in my grubby little hands ever since. Just admiring the shiny new Pretty & murmering the occasional "Precioussss" over it's new-to-me reality.
I'm talking about feelings & finally grokking that it's ok to have every feeling I do. Not only is it OK, it's part of what makes me human. Seems pretty fundamental, right? A real no-brainer, hmm? Well maybe some of us are more sentient than others, because though I've been hearing this news for years, I can finally apply it to my own little self! This is huge for me. My feelings aren't bad, sinful, capable of harming me or anyone anyone else. They're just... feelings. I can sit with them, acknowledge them, own them, release them if I choose & they don't have to own me, they don't have the power to ruin me. Amazing what group therapy can do if you give it a chance.
Today, instead of fearing them, I'm going to be grateful for feelings.
I probably don't tell you often enough how proud I am of you & how brave I think you are. Thank you for your courage. I love you. D.
Posted by: Couch Potato | Friday, November 09, 2007 at 05:10 PM
Neasa, this is huge. Epiphany!
Posted by: Kikipotamus the Hobo | Friday, November 09, 2007 at 10:08 PM
Wow! Amazing! It sounds like you have been doing some hard internal work and it is paying off.
Posted by: Anne | Saturday, November 10, 2007 at 09:12 AM